I am thankful for modern medicine.
I am thankful for nausea meds and magic mouthwash.
I am thankful for family that has also turned their own lives upside down to get me through this.
I am thankful for great nurses and doctors.
I am thankful the scar on my leg really isn't that bad.
I am thankful to live in an area that has a good hospital system that is playing a large role in the cancer world.
I am thankful for friends and their sweet messages.
I am thankful for my dogs.
I am thankful this treatment will end. Some cancers require years of treatment.
I am thankful I don't have to spend countless months or weeks in the hospital. Really a few days is nothing.
I am thankful to be able to eat what I can, when I can.
I am thankful my ability to walk WILL come back, it just isn't as fast as I'd like.
I am thankful for my own bed.
I am thankful for a mom who (among hundreds of other things) stays with me in the hospital.
I am thankful for funny TV shows.
I am thankful for online shopping ;).
I am thankful (understatement) that things have gone so well.
I am thankful for the opportunity to complete classes online.
I am thankful for hair that will grow back (and in the meantime...not having to shave!).
I am thankful for clean sheets.
I am thankful for cooler temperatures.
I am thankful for good days.
I am thankful one day this will all be a distant memory.
I am thankful for new days.
I am thankful that depsite all my bad days, I can usually come back and realize how lucky I am.
A bit premature for Thanksgiving, but I wanted to do a follow up to my last post. I know it may have been hard to read, so I just wanted to remind everyone that life is good and so am I. Do I still miss those things? Every damn day. But I don't spend everyday focusing on those things, or I try not to. I think my funk is lifting slowly. Some days I just have to let my feelings out, and sometimes I do that by writing.
My mom and I had a long talk before bed the other night about all the things I've been thinking about. I felt better after talking. I had been keeping a lot in. I am sure I will discuss those things more upcoming. I will say, thinking of life when treatment ends is terrifying. I cannot wait, but figuring out how to put the pieces of my life back together is scary. I want normal more than anything, but I don't even know what normal will look like now. I have some time to figure it out, and I know that I will.
It has been rainy and cloudy here for almost a week with no end in site. I am OVER it. I like a cloudy day here and there, but this is too much. I need the rain to leave, but the cool temps to stay!!
My hair started coming out again. While not unexpected and not as hard, it is still never fun to see your pillow covered with your hair. It didn't all come out last time so I'll be curious to see what happens now. I'm just hoping my eyebrows and eyelashes hold on as long as possible! I am happy this is the last time I will deal with this and look forward to it coming back for good!
I woke up the other day with a bad headcold. I am hoping it is on its way out now. I hate colds so much! Plus now we have to be so careful and make sure it doesn't cause a fever. On that note, it is that time of year where I should throw this out there. If you have been sick or been around someone who was, please wait till you are better to come see me! Chemo makes my counts drop and I really need to avoid getting sick as much as possible so things stay on schedule. Thank you in advance :).
I don't really have anything exciting to say. I am hoping to leave the house tomorrow for the first time in weeks, even if it is just to get some Starbucks!! I've been eating as much as I can (which is not as much as my mom would like) since the methotrexate messes with my tastebuds. I am really praying my levels drop quickly so we can get a few days at home before going back. I am going to miss Stanley!!
Thanks for all the love and prayers!! Ready to cross these next two treatments off my list!
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